I clearly can't keep up with my own blog, since my last post was in December of last year...but I have all these words in my head and I need to get them out. So here it goes.
Depression is something that most people hesitate to talk about, but the way I look at it is like I look at most things in life...better out than in! I feel the need to share about this because most people see depression as some type of disease that these sad, mopey people have and just need to "get over." But I consider myself a happy camper most of the time - yet I've struggled with depression - and that struggle was real. We all go through tough times, and no one is exempt. But some go through battles that no one knows about. Only a few of the people closest to me know this, but this time two years ago was one of the toughest times of my life, I was going through a pretty intense battle internally and frankly, I felt utterly stuck in a place of hopelessness. But God put the right people (literally) in my path that helped me out of a pretty dark time that I thought was going to last forever. I went to counseling and worked my butt off and asked God for the grace to endure the daily battle to let go of control. Later on that year I walked 500 miles in Spain and He set me back on the right track. It's not as short a journey for some, but for me I guess that was all I could handle. The point is that the hopelessness didn't last forever and I found hope.
Fast forward to this time last year, I was on a plane to the Philippines (holy spontaneity, batman!) where I began to learn about what it means to truly be grateful and I also learned how to really enjoy the people that were put in my path. Sometimes we need to get out of our brains and into our hearts and just love. Now when people are put into my life, I get so excited to see what adventures are in store!
Fast forward again to...tomorrow and I'll be jumping on a bus headed for Los Angeles, California to let the whole city know what God the Father thinks about them ... that they're AMAZING. (Please pray for our team!)
Life is full of ups and downs. So if you're in a place of darkness, depression or despair - please, please, please have hope! Don't give up and know that this is just a part of the story. It will get better. I am in a better place than I could ever imagine, but I honestly believe it is because of the suffering I endured to get here. Blessed are the Depressed for they will find Hope.